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Ups and downs

Ups and downs

I’ve been struggling this week, and giving in and not practicing what I’ve been learning these last 7 weeks.  There’s no way to gussy it up to sound better, either.

The office has been tough for me:  bagels one day, fresh donuts from my favorite bakery the next, and a bad breakfast decision on my part the day after that.

The bagel day, I didn’t even really want one, but my co-worker had gone out of his way to bring them in (because he knows I love them!) and so I found it difficult to not have one. It felt rude to turn it down.  No one at work knows that I’m doing Lean Eating — and that’s how I think I’m going to keep it for awhile — and so he didn’t know that I’m trying to stay away from unplanned, surprise bagels.

The donuts?  Well, those were a present from a rare vendor visit and when I walked by them, the smell wafted up and grabbed me.  I should have said no.  I should have kept walking.  But I didn’t.  That’s not really the worst part, though.  The worst part was that I went back for another even though by that time I *really* wasn’t hungry.  The only thing that kept me from getting a third?  The fact that my jeans were very uncomfortably tight. I suppose it was a stroke of luck that I was wearing my Getting-Fat jeans rather than my Already-Fat jeans (which have a little slack in them).

The breakfast decision… well, usually once a week I treat myself to a bagel with egg and cheese on it.  I figure that as long as I have a week of good eating, that’s one thing that’s not horrible for me and that I really enjoy.  But, coming on the heels of everything else, I really should have abstained this week.

And the vegetable habit… well, I haven’t been doing very well with that either.  I’m getting in 2-3 servings a day, but that’s been it, mostly because I haven’t cooked dinner even once this week.  Some of it due to busy days that ended up out of my control, some of it due to days that I was just too tired and lazy to put in the effort to cook.

So, tonight, I decided that I needed to do something to turn it around.  After getting home from work and napping for awhile due to a headache, I went out to the store and bought tons of vegetables and good stuff for food to make over the weekend.  I’ve got baked broccoli, a vegetable frittata and a warm spinach side dish on the menu — all new recipes that I’m looking forward to trying out.

The moral of the story:  acknowledge the past, be gentle and give myself a break and then move on.  Don’t let those donuts from the past be the excuse for bad choices in the future.

2 Comments

  1. Good for you! Let it go and move on. Eating a donut or two doesn’t mean that you’ve blown your program. I think letting yourself go a little overboard and having something you really enjoy on occassion helps keep you from going off the deep end. It’s when you eat half the box that you need to take a look at where your head is. You had your goodies and moved on. Progress! 🙂

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